My True Testimony
Greetings! Thank God for letting me share my real testimony here. I was born in Hong Kong in the 1970s. I have one brother and two sisters, and I am the third kid of my parents. My parents worked really hard to earn money, so we were looked after by domestic helpers in our early ages.
Since I was a kid, I didn't know how to communicate with others. I had a bad relationship with my family and had no friends. Therefore, I spent my childhood in loneliness and tears. In 1990, my whole family immigrated to Canada with me.
At the age of 15, I was looking forward to a new page in my life. Instead, I did not find a true confidant, but my relationship with my family became even worse. I have tried to run away from home, have dropped out of school and killed myself by drug overdose. After that, I saw a psychiatrist, but it didn't help my mood.
In 1992, I met a boyfriend and he was very submitted to me, so I totally depended on him. Two years later, we registered to get married. But less than a year after marriage, he quietly left me. It turned out that he went to another province to study. After I knew that, I took a plane to look for him. I hoped he would change his mind and not abandon me. Under the arrangement of God, I met a Christian in the university where he was studying. Upon asking, I could not believe he actually knew my husband's friend! Eventually, I found my husband ... But cruelly, he sent me back to the airport, I knelt down in front of him and begged him not to leave me, but he handed me over to the security guard. I have no choice but return to Vancouver.
After returning to Vancouver, I laid in my bed crying everyday all the time, and I thought of suicide again, before I did so I wish I could say last "goodbye" to my husband but I did not have his contact number, so I had to ask the Christian again for help. When the Christian heard that I was going to commit suicide, he immediately sent his friend here to stop me. Thank God for saving my life again. The Christian then sent another friend to care about me. She was also a caring Christian and often came to meet me and took me to church, she then introduced me to see a Christian counsellor, who is also a pastor’s wife.
The pastor's wife treated me with even more compassion and mercy. I remember that I barely had money for paying the counselling organization that she worked for, but she never minded it. Every time we met, she would read the Bible and pray with me, it brought me a lot of comfort and help, and made me feel very hopeful, especially when I read Psalm 23: 4. "Although I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, Do not be afraid to suffer, because you are with me; your staff, your staff, comfort me. ”But then, the counsellor ’s husband had to go to another province to pastor another church, so she needed to leave with him, so we needed to say good bye.
In 1994, at an evangelical conference, the pastor quoted some Biblical verses, and God finally made me realize His precious salvation. In Psalm 8: 4-5 it says, "What is mankind that you are mindful of them, human beings that you care for them? You have made them[b] a little lower than the angels[c]and crowned them[d] with glory and honor.”In John 3:16 also says,“ For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life. " That night I was very moved, because I never thought that God even loves a person like me, so I can be saved for free. In Romans 10: 9 it says, " If you declare with your mouth, “Jesus is Lord,” and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved." Then at the moment I accepted the Lord, my heart was filled with peace, joy, and hope that had never happened before.
In the past, I had misunderstood that God is superior and ignores human suffering, but it is actually not like that, because He came to the world more than 2,000 years ago and had experienced the sufferings of the world, so our sins were washed by the blood he shed from being nailed to the cross. I used to think that He did not suffer from any pain when the Lord Jesus was crucified, but Isaiah 53: 4-5 clearly tells us, "Surely he took up our pain and bore our suffering, yet we considered him punished by God, stricken by him, and afflicted. But he was pierced for our transgressions, he was crushed for our iniquities; the punishment that brought us peace was on him, and by his wounds we are healed. "
The sacrificing love of God has repaired my relationship with my family and changed my whole view of life and values. In 2010, my mother was suffered from terminal lung cancer, but because she also believed in the salvation of the Lord Jesus, she was not afraid, instead her heart was filled with peace and hope. Before she passed away, she often comforted us by saying that she was just leaving the world by taking an earlier train. In 2011, she eventually went back to the heavenly home. Although I am very sad because of missing her, I am convinced that one day we will reunite in heaven. I sincerely hope that you, like me and my mother, will accept the precious salvation of the Lord Jesus Christ, so you can also enjoy the peace, joy, hope and eternal life from God!
